I saw myself losing all hope, all over a stupid drug


Hotbox – “Must Have Been”

I made this track during a mid-February snowstorm. I had spent a couple of hours listening to some old soul records when I caught the catchy memorable “I must have been out of my mind” vocal loop. I decided then to build a track around this loop by chopping the vocals and adding a grimy […]

24 April 2009

  1. anon · April 24, 2009

    hope you’re getting help… it’s out there, if you look for it.

  2. OP · April 24, 2009

    I’m working on it! Thanks!

  3. guynl · April 24, 2009

    One day at a time. Check out a meeting. There’s an AA group in town. That’s the religious route. The God bit can be off putting but there is good support knowing the ones giving you guidance have been where you are. http://www.aastjohns.nf.net/

    I advise you get to a meeting, take your mind off the cravings. Do 90 meetings in 90 days. Take long walks and count cracks in the sidewalk anything to keep you from relapsing. If you do, don’t make a big deal about it. You need to love yourself right now, forgive yourself. My heart goes out to you for having the courage to reach out here and hope my message won’t offend but felt had to reach out and show support. There are three days. Yesterday is gone and doesn’t matter. Tomorrow isn’t here yet so doesn’t exist either. All you’ve got is today.

    One day at a time.

    May you feel the serenity to accept the things you cannot change, courage to change the things you can and wisdom to know the difference.


  4. Vic · April 24, 2009

    OP… I’ve been where you are. It took some hard work, but I am loving life now ( and I came from the depths of despair). If I can do it, you can! Life is so much better, I can’t even express it… and it will be for you too, I promise! Please don’t give up hope… you deserve far more than that. Thinking of you!

  5. Someone · April 24, 2009

    I nearly killed myself on account of a substance…you gotta get it before it gets you.

    P.S.: Atheists can join A.A. God can be whatever you want it to be in the program.

  6. OP · April 24, 2009

    Thanks for the encouragement and great advice: still working on it a day at a time and look forward to the light at the end.

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